Wow. Almost two months since I wrote. I thought it was time to dust off the old blog and get back to it.
This morning, I had the occasion to pull my driver’s license out. And, for those of you who’ve seen me drive, no it wasn’t for a police officer! When I put the license back in my wallet, I accidentally put it in upside down. Normally, I would immediately switch it, because it would stress my OCD tendencies just a little too much. Today, though, I left it. Why? Well, life has had me feeling a bit upside down and I just thought it was appropriate, somehow.
We lost my dad to cancer a month ago. What a weird, winding journey this has been. Nothing in life prepares us for the loss of a parent, yet it is in the natural order of things for our parents to pass away first. Nothing has been as it should be. As a friend put it, all my puzzle pieces are there, I just haven’t gotten them put back in place yet. Some days, I would say I’m shattered, other days only fractured. I know that someday, everything will shift into a new normal, but for now that knowing seems a bit shallow, empty.
Now….back to the upside down license. Back in the summer, I bought myself a sequined, colorful wallet with butterflies on it. It was flashy enough to suit my personality, yet subdued enough to belong to an adult. My super-cool wallet has a clear plastic sleeve for your license or credit card or whatever. My license lives there. So, I can see clearly that it is still upside down. (See….told you that would bother me!) But, as I slid it in, I thought about how secure it is in that plastic sleeve….despite the upside down-ness. And, that’s kind of how I feel. I may be off-kilter even more than normal, but I know I am secure in my Father’s hand.
His promises have never been more sure – or more needed – than in these last couple of months. He will never leave me or forsake me. (Hebrews 13:5) He will uphold me with His righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10) He is with me, leading me, guiding me, tending me. (Psalm 23) He has been my comforter, my rock, my shield, my strength, my hope, my peace.
And what He has done for me, He will do for you. Has life got you feeling upside down right now? Don’t panic! God still has you and will set you right side up in His perfect timing.
Be blessed and tell someone you love them.