So, I’m sitting here trying to figure out if it’s okay to start my blog with a smiley face and a laugh. Hope so.
Okay. Got that out of my system.
It’s been quite a week. The roller coaster ride that is my life has been more than a little bumpy. There have been exhilarating highs and agonizing lows. Yet, in the face of it all, I have been met in a mighty way by my Comforter. God has held me close and given me peace despite the dizzying turns and frightening dips that life has had for me.
Someone hurt me. Deeply. Instinct tells me to hold my hurt close and not let anyone know. But, how can you learn my lesson if I don’t share it? So…deep breath….here goes… Okay, you don’t really think I’m gonna give you details, do you??? Hope you brought your imagination!
This battle has been waged for about a year. I didn’t mean to be in it…honestly! I’m not sure what I did to draw the first blow, but I must have done it…whatever it is….because oh-my-goodness, I’ve been attacked! The first thrust of the sword took me by surprise. The next few didn’t, but were no less painful. Not every shot has hit its mark, but a few have cut. This one though….whew….it wounded. And it hurts. And a big part of me wants to say, “get ’em God!” But, I’m pretty sure that’s not what the Word says.
Yesterday, I wrote about how this battle isn’t ours and what we must do to withstand it. Today’s blog definitely goes with it, but is a bit different. There was a verse that I wanted to use yesterday and for the life of me, I couldn’t remember where to find it in the Bible! Today, it popped up on my Facebook page, complete with a pretty picture! (God is so good!) The verse is “The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.” Genesis 14:14, NIV. So, I guess I’m supposed to use it today. Okay, God, there it is.
The other verse that has been rolling in my spirit is this: “But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.” Luke 6:27-28, NIV. Now, don’t get mad at me. I didn’t say it. Jesus said it. In red letters and all! And, see, I told you that the Bible didn’t say that we could go around saying “get ’em God!” In fact,the apostle Paul says, “Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God, for it is written, “VENGEANCE IS MINE, I WILL REPAY,” says the Lord.” Romans 12:19, NASB. Not only are we not allowed to take revenge, we must pray for them? Ouch.
Ironically, this hasn’t been as difficult as I originally thought. The truth is that I really would like to see this person happier, more joyful so that they wouldn’t need to take swings at me….or whoever else is bugging them at the moment. Don’t get me wrong. It still hurts. I’m still sad. But, wishing this person harm doesn’t make me feel any better. And that’s been one of the highs of my week: to realize that I could hurt without wanting to return the pain. It’s been a true gift from God.
The other highs? Ha! Well, you’ll just have to wait!
Be blessed and tell someone you love them!